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Interrupted night

Halo ! Apakabar ? Aku kembali untuk menuliskan beberapa hal yang lumayan penting, atau tidak (?) Dan aku sedang dalam good mood mungkin, sedikit, karena seseorang, yg mungkin sudah terlambat di raih sekarang... Tapi aku akan menceritakan sesuatu yg lumayan buruk ? jadi mood aku suram lagi, tapi gapapa deh. Aku juga bingung sama diri aku sendiri, sampai 4 hari belakangan aku gabisa tidur, entah khawatir atau apa karena masalah ini. Aku sudah bercerita ke teman dekat ku di surabaya,tapi tetap aja ngga bisa tenang lebih tepatnya, pesan yang tidak tersampaikan hingga mengganjal dan dan mengganggu seluruh aktivitas dan kehidupanmu. Karena kau tidak tahu kebenaran info nya. Yah walaupun itu bukan urusan ku, entah kenapa dadaku berdebar-debar, kadang sesak, kehilangan fokus, dan nangis tiba-tiba. Aku udah coba tenangin diri berkali-kali, tenang sesaat terus kambuh lagi kalo teringat. Aku sakit? Psikologis? Anxiety ? Ah enggak kayaknya. Aku lebay? Hari minggu lalu jam 10 malam saat aku in...

Untitled

Hello It hasn't been so long after I posted the previous post. Right now is 9.52 am, only 2 hours passed. Well damn my tears wont stop coming out since that. I want to scream out at twitter but several friends in uni and my bestfriends are there, I cant. Sadly this is the last place I can freely write about anything my heart out. His words, that last words i told you about. it just.. , it just hurt me deeply. I dont know. I tried to shuush it by reading books and exercising question for next month olympiad. But the words still ringing in my head. I moved to the room next to mine because the tears wont stop. What should I do? Sleep? But I got much to do I cant handle this anymore Should I ask for break up?

Yellow Line

Halo... It's August yeaah! New term is up. I am back in my hometown on 28th July and spending until 25 this month here. We are on holiday since late June but research and paper caught me in Bandung so... Jadi gue mau curhat dulu. Setelah revision paper q yg gue submit ke mkb, gue ijin pulang sama Dr rini. Sebenernya kalo di Bandung enak sih bisa konsen belajar buat IMO tapi ga enak gue kasian mamah sama papah di rumah gaada yg bantu bantu kerja. Akhirnya pulang dan jadi babu kembali wkwk tapi sedihnya Dr rini wajib in buat paper untuk BIBMC Dan deadlinenya 31 agustus. Sedangkan data2 gue Ada di lab sentral di nangor, tapi senin 27 agustus gue udah mulai perkuliahan di Bandung. Yaaaa gimana ya?? Itu secara alus maksa ga sih buat ikutan? Terus gitu gue juga disuruh buat untuk Dokter temen nya di Bali, dr jacky. Kan gue bingung!!!!!!! Pengen marah Dan sebel banget tapi gak bisa. Gue pengen 2 bln ini fokus IMO gitu. Gak bisa?? Sedangkan kerjaan dirumah banyak bangettt , kakak gue y...

You look happier, you do.

halo. akhir-akhir ini gue heran dan bertanya-tanya pada diri sendiri what the hell is wrong with myself. atau gue yg lebay yha. belakangan ini gue tidak produktif sama sekali. contohnya ini :) instead of doing work, gue malah nulis dan scroll scroll ig dan tl line gajelas, lazying and sleeping whole day. padahal di notes banyak bgt deadline yg harus dikerjakan, tapi sepertinya ini adalah masa-masa titik ke"rebel"an gue meningkat. okee gue mau cerita darimana dulu yahh hari minggu kemarin kakak sepupu gue finally nikah yeay!! agak sedih sih tapi jadi rumah di antapani sepi, soalnya yg gue deket sama si kakak daripada dua sepupu yg lain, artinya gue bisa jarang ke sana(emang sering?) yeay.  Minggunya gue dikirimin revisian paper sama dr rini. tulisan gue di delete semua dong, dokternya ngebuat sendiri :"") agak sedih tapi gimana yaa, emang tulisan dokternya lebih enak dibaca. bahasa gue kaku banget. dan sampe hari ini gue belum lanjutin tinjauan pustakanya ...

Sleeping at Last

Heloow. Today was a reallyy tired but a nice day. Awaken from nice short naps (not really,  4 hours is good lol) bcs of this damn rhinitis and I remembered I havent finish my homework for,  today? Lol Ah btw actually this blog has a new reader. Lol.  No,  im not angry or mad.  Just chills hey dude over there.  Tbh i know from the start cos you liked the post button on gplus haha and thats ok you are not preventing me from writing my daily shitty life in this shitty journal. Nevermind tho anyway,  hari ini gue sangat excited karena belajar sesuatu yg baru di kandang yeaay!  Surgical anesthesia!! Jadi karena takut data gue gak valid, gue harus buat ulang percobaan nya. Jam 9 gue ke kandang buat misahin mencit jantan yg akan di tuakan umurnya,  jadi 24 minggu. Umur mereka sekarang masih 10 wk so I must wait another 14 wk and it will be the end of february....  Shiet. Lama juga yah.  Sedangkan etik udah di urus dan gue belum buat...

Roman Holiday

Gambar
nom nom nom hari ini adalah deadline dari submit paper unisba. and guess what? ternyata sepertinya saya tidak jadi mensubmitnya hahahaha dimulai dari hari jumat pagi, gue ke faper buat lanjutin menghitung morfo dari jam 9 sampai 12. ternyata ketemu dr rini selesai ngajar. gue lagi mumet atau apa langsung kabur ke fk padahal disuruh tunggu dulu haha hari itu dr rini sama dr rizky presentasi di lab sentral. temanya sih herb medicine gitu. berhubung gue ada kelas, jadi gabisa ikutan. padahal yah taunya pas tutor gaada dokternya dan alhasil kita main gaple sama remi haha tetep aja gue ga ngerti dan dengan baik hati fadhil ngajarin. duh hal2 kecil gapenting gini yg sering membuat gue baper hahaha DASAR DEPENDABLE HAHAH u__u lool terus gue pulang dan nyelesain paper. pas sore mamah video call. si meong udah gede, makin ganteng ajaaa hiih kangen pengen peluk u___u terus papa juga lagi gendong-gendong dia haha lucu bgt berasa inget pas si aisyah masih balita, masih lucu juga. jadi pengen...

Liburan Rasa Kuliah

fuck fuck fuck yea im stress-ing more than any days, in every holiday. I planned going to gramed to buy some mangas, but it will be waste of money, so no. And  now is raining very hard so im too lazy to move my ass.  Now im reading some journal shit to write a litrev for Unej and UI's scientific competition. TBH I didnt plan these at all, but two friends of mine asked me, and being the angel I dont have the heart to reject them. Ah, how kind I be. And the theme is neuroshit WHY WHY WHY I HAPPILY LEAVING 3rd Sem cos neuro but now :((((( ahhgh fuck Then I have to clean and typesetting or maybe translating some works for my group :(  gruesomely exhausted :(( I need my holiday . DOwnloaded some animes and dramas A bucket of gay movies to watch  Tons of ideas to write gayporns but I cant :( how nice

Boombayah

Well , hellow there this is my first posting in this new year, and I just finished this term final. HELL YEAH. not really. I have epidemiology quiz day after  tomorrow, but fuck who cares. the thing is I have 2 week holiday until 29 Jan, but Im going home at 15 and back at 31. IM GOING HOME FUCK YEAH. but not really excited lol. A few weeks ago my lil sist send me our lil cat picture and she is growing and becoming a beauty aa~ cant wait to see her, I MISS CUDDLING PAK TUA, BUT THEN SHE COMES :( my sist gave her name. Hikari. so just call her kari, kari ayam, sup kari, roti kari, kanan dan kari. ok  dont mind me So now I have my free time a head, im going to watch some dramas and animes but my wifi is slow as fuck. Im going to Atika's home to download some gayporn and stuffs later. yay. And I have my job now :( typesetting and I will learn some kanji to translate something but my head is a lazy butt, it cant learn fast, so I hope I can learn maybe at least 100 kanji i...

Crossing Field

morning. its 2.30 a.m. just awaken from some short sleep cos I got my head pounding hard like some bombs gonna explode anytime. Just got home from sabuga. Its been some days so Im gonna write what happened today. So, my faculty just held the charity concert, the closing end of FK Unpad Fair. I got myself a free pass so why not listen some jams but I mostly didnt know the songs, only know Tulus and I dont even remember the lyrics like wtf feel like I was standing in a wrong concert lol  OH YESH FORGET TO MENTION THAT BTS WON ARTIST AND SONGS OF THE YEAR ON MAMA LIKE CONGRATS MY BABIES OUR HARD WORK WERE PAID :" jungkook bby and suga cried at the stage omg ily guys words cant describe it, lets make more memories in 2017 :(((( I wanna stream them more but SCHOOL SUCK :(( they were so gorgeous in boy meets evil AND TAEJIN WTF THEY WERE SO KINKY N I BELIEVE THERE WILL BE MORE TAEJIN FANFIC IN AFF xD REMEMBER THOSE KISS IN A FANMEETING? XD everything started there omg guysssssss my h...

I need my own space

Bisa gak gw ngilang dari penglihatan semua orang :( bisa gak semua orang gak kenal dan peduli sama gw :( bisa gak acuhin dan gak hirauin gw bisa gak diemin gw bisa gak anggep gw gak ada gw lg butuh sendiri. tapi gimana menolak atau tidak membalas chat seseorang? gw tau kita butuh orang, gak bisa hidup sendiri. but I need my own space :( kenapa orang gak peka :( Gw unsoc. Gw orang biasa. Gw gak suka ketemu orang ngertiin lah. tapi tuntutan profesi? :(

teach me to be an asshole yes

hey im back after sometimes. did u miss me :-------( i just got back from solo last week for medsmo 2016. although its my first time, I got dissappointed cos its not worth 900k money at all ..... the presentation was going well, not really, ah i dont care about the competition at all. the competition was held in their univ, i think their building is niceeee. they got 8 storeys and elevator. Canteen foods were also cheap too. but there was no entertainment around. we must go to city for more place to visit. Luckily, I have my old neighbor there and showed around. At closing night before dinner party, we went to solobaru, ate nasi liwet and watch cultural performance at the park. Then my aunt sent I and my friend (just two of us cos the another one went to her uncle's place) to balaikota.  Next day was simposium day, we didnt go there cos my aunt invited me to puncak i dont know what the heck its name, sawung? sawang? forgot otl. then we ate sate kelinci nyumnyum . the vicinity ...

Jangan Nikah

yha judulnya ga penting sama dengan isi post ini harusnya gw membaca fitzgerald atau snell sekarang but I loath them too much, why ga bisa ya di skip ini sistem. gw sebel bgt sumpah ini sistem belajar apaan banyak bgt hapalannya. balikin sistem rps gw (?) yah sudahlah, nikmatin aja hidup. btw, minggu depan gw ke solo, hazek. inget sama litrev yg gue ogah ogahan buatnya? ternyata masuk final. edan buset sumpah dah itu bener -_- gw takut presentasinya coba. abis gapernah :( yg gw kesel temen/anggota litrev gw gabisa d ajak kerjasama.... gw antara enak dan ga enak cerita di sini but this is my only journal jadi yah... jadi kan gw ketua, iya wajar sih gw yg ngurus semuanya, tapi yaa masa gitu. sejujurnya litrev itu adalah murni 100% gw yg nyusun wqwqwq. temen yg satu cuma translatein, krna gw susun dari inggris. yg satu lg gw maklum, dia sibuk bgt bolak balik bandung-nangor, double degree, yg ngajakin jg gw karena waktu itu kosong satu anggota jd gw yah gpp. nah besok kan fi...

Anata no mirai

Well fuck I have so much to write lol where do I start I Woke up at 2 and immediately open mrm unconsciously and found out someone submit their bahasa works there, and it's the newest beriko's sama work LIKE WTF THE QUALITY OF TRANSLATION AND TYPING IS SO CHEAP YET THERE IS NO COMPLAINT LIKE OUR GROUP WAS FUCK MAN, indonesian. I'm going to work my ass to learn Japanese soooo we will have better scans LIKE WATCH MEEEEEE /hype with kak nobu Then at 12 mom and my imoto was having video cam yaaaay already so long after last chat (around last month I think). We talked random stuff 1,5 hour..... I talked about what I wanna do in future, the residents and specialist interest. I said I wanna be an obstetricians cos in my hometown the is only some female obstetricians, so I wanna be one. Some women dont want to with male docs. But I said to mom why , im going to see vaginas all the time lol. Then I said I like urology too, but there mostly old men and penises lol but there is s...

That-so-called first sight

Yak. Gue mau post suatu peristiwa penting hari ini. Ceritanya kak audi, kaka kelas gw pas sma, minta bantuin ambil sampel data skripsi di bale 3. Judulnya ttg hub aktivitas fisik dan kenyamanan tidur. Kalo ga salah dari dept fisio sama ikfr. Ceritanya ngitung step test 3 menit dan parameternya heart rate. Ya skip skip bagian gapentingnya. Jadi subyeknya anak2 bale dan mostly boys hnggg thats why I luv skripshit. No gue ga gatel anjer, but this is where you can meet new perfect people to ship. Im thirsty for boys love haha Jadi ceritanya ada cowo super ultimate uke ;""""" tingginya sekitar 164 and his weight only 51 FUCK THATS SO PETITE. Dia kacamataan, rambutnya agak gondrong. Ih neko banget lah pokoknya. Incaran om om banget :" tadi dia pake short jadi ya HAHAHAHA Tapi setelah gw liat mukanya sih banyak tipe tachi gitu cuma gatau ya dalemnya hmmhmmm trus tadi pas kuisioner ada yg kayak fragile bgt gabisa fisik keras asdfvhjl :"" butuh perl...