夏の後に

So we are officially a memories.. There is no use dwelling in the past.. Ah lagu ini aku puter seharian. Yes.. the lyrics says it all. We are officially a memories. He doesnt want to comeback anymore. My friend tell me maybe he just got new gf. And I just should move on. Long long before. But what do they know? It was us againts the world.  I shouldnt write this but I remember every moments we spent in the past. Our first meeting, it was two years ago.  Kita satu tutor. I havent heard your name before. But the moment I saw you, It was love at first sight. But I denied it, because some people I had crush before, turned that I hate them, because I have expectation on them. Day by day, we exchanged with some chat althought just small chat. But it bring such big feeling for me. And last day of term we studied together at DD for OSCE. And we made pinky promise, telling each other little secret. I fell so hard that time. I couldnt bring myself to chat you first b

Halo It's almost 3 in the morning and I just got back from movies. Sudah hari ke 5 perkuliahan dimulai. Jadwal 2 minggu awal ini penuh dg lecture pagi dan skills siang. Sedangkan 6 minggu ke depan bakal wahana ke puskesmas. Mudah mudah an aku dapat puskesmas yang deket sini biar ga jauh jauh huhu u___u Tutor baru ku lumayan sih, kebanyakan aku belum pernah bareng. Ada kiky!!! Aku senang. Pasti nanti kalo belajar asiik. Kiky baik dan pinter serta tidak sombong uuwuuu 😪😏 ada ivena, hans, fabian, razan, via, iput, aghni, desta, vania, sama taraa. Aku mah kalo skills deket2 ivena aja biar ngerti 😂 asik banyak yg rajin suka acuuu Lecture beberapa hari ini aku juga bareng ivena. Kadang bingung deh ,aku tuh udah di tag in sama tania, jesu, iven, terus aku teh duduk sama siapa biar adil:( Ku dari kemarin pengen banget nonton searching sama christopher robin. Ngajakin ivena tapi dia nya gamau kalo jam 5 an, sedangkan di jadwal bioskop semua jam 5 an. Akhirnya aku langsung balik.

Hello. It is 3.19 am in the morning. How are you? Hai. Ku sudah kembali ke bandung 2 hari yg lalu. Hari sabtu. Pesawatnya delay 2 jam, yg harusnya berangkat jam 2 jadi jam 4. Nyampe jam stengah 6 deh. Untung nunggu bagasinya gak lama. Nyampe kosan jam 6.20 sore. Ku ketiduran cepat dan kebangun jam 2. Tadi shalat tahajud terus sekarang lagi baca-baca gineko. Ku lgi sedih hehehehe akhirnya putus lagi :) kemarin ku tidak sabar buat ketemu bobie. Sehari sebelum balik ke sini ku sedihh banget. Bobie tinggal sama anak anak c2, kemarin dia skripsian. Engga tau sama siapa. Kayaknya asik banget. Aku nanya skripsian sama siapa malah nanya balik. Huhu kesel. Akhirnya cuma read doang. Terus seharian dia ga chat apa-apa. Ku sedih aja like2 post an galau seperti biasa heheeheheee terus dia malah langsung ngchat. Saat itu juga. Kenapa kalo ga di cjat gamau chat duluan? Knp harus akunya sedih dulu baru di tanggepin. Yaudah aku bales aja cuma singkat2, dia sampe nelfonin line, wa, hp juga cuma

Hello It hasn't been so long after I posted the previous post. Right now is 9.52 am, only 2 hours passed. Well damn my tears wont stop coming out since that. I want to scream out at twitter but several friends in uni and my bestfriends are there, I cant. Sadly this is the last place I can freely write about anything my heart out. His words, that last words i told you about. it just.. , it just hurt me deeply. I dont know. I tried to shuush it by reading books and exercising question for next month olympiad. But the words still ringing in my head. I moved to the room next to mine because the tears wont stop. What should I do? Sleep? But I got much to do I cant handle this anymore Should I ask for break up?

Night peeps! Saat gue mengetik ini sedang malam minggu. Mama, Papah, Adik dan Kakak sedang nonton opening Asian Games 2018 di ruang tamu. Sedangkan gue menyendiri di kamar untuk menulis setelah beberapa lama tidak update. Kabar gue biasa aja. Mungkin sedikit tidak mood. Cerita darimana ya? Tanggal 12 kemarin dyka ulang tahun. HAPPY 22TH BIRTHDAY BIG BRO. I wish you all the best and hope we can be bro forever ❤❤❤ thank you for all those times, you were there and always help me when I'm in need. Kalau gue badmoot dia selalu bisa bikin gimana gue seneng lagi hehe 😂😂 Walaupun kadang ngeselin kalo gue di kacangin but that's okeeyyy my big bro is the greateesstt !! Ku bingung mau ngasih kado apa 😂 mungkin bakal telat ngasihnya karena mikir nya lama. Yg berguna apa ya? Dia kemarin pengen wireless headphone kalo gasalah *Cek dompet dulu* 😂😂 tunggu hadiah q y bang Oiya kemarin udah ada pembagian jadwal tutor dan skills. Aku dapet family medicine duluan, tutor 3 bareng Ivena

so we’re officially a memory there’s no use dwelling in the past well i’ve always understood anything that feels this good is the kind of thing that wasn’t meant to last so i’ll get over you cause thats what people do yes, you and i, we’ll both get by, well make it, come what may the days will turn to years and when the smoke all clears when i refer to what we were i’ll simply smile and say: you’re the one who got away i’ve never claimed to be an optimist no big believer in romance but we could have worked out well, and it’s frustrating as hell that we never really ever got a chance the world keeps turning still just like it always will i wish it all would stop or stall, but it does not obey i’m sure we’ll both move on though what we had is gone but there’s a part, deep in my heart where you will always stay as the one who got away i’ll tell myself i’ve lost nothing worth grieving i’ll list the reason we were bound to fall through and someday i might go as far as be

Halo... It's August yeaah! New term is up. I am back in my hometown on 28th July and spending until 25 this month here. We are on holiday since late June but research and paper caught me in Bandung so... Jadi gue mau curhat dulu. Setelah revision paper q yg gue submit ke mkb, gue ijin pulang sama Dr rini. Sebenernya kalo di Bandung enak sih bisa konsen belajar buat IMO tapi ga enak gue kasian mamah sama papah di rumah gaada yg bantu bantu kerja. Akhirnya pulang dan jadi babu kembali wkwk tapi sedihnya Dr rini wajib in buat paper untuk BIBMC Dan deadlinenya 31 agustus. Sedangkan data2 gue Ada di lab sentral di nangor, tapi senin 27 agustus gue udah mulai perkuliahan di Bandung. Yaaaa gimana ya?? Itu secara alus maksa ga sih buat ikutan? Terus gitu gue juga disuruh buat untuk Dokter temen nya di Bali, dr jacky. Kan gue bingung!!!!!!! Pengen marah Dan sebel banget tapi gak bisa. Gue pengen 2 bln ini fokus IMO gitu. Gak bisa?? Sedangkan kerjaan dirumah banyak bangettt , kakak gue y

One day I will look back and thank y But today I hate you One day I will kneel and thank the gods But today I curse them for meeting you One day I will see you and feel nothing But today I deleted your number, your photos, our memories and still feel you One day I will think of you and laugh about what a terrible match we were But today I dissect, analyze, and blame One day I will see you with another woman and wish you well But today the thought of your lips meeting someone else’s paralyzes me One day I will forgive myself for the pain and confusion I caused you But today I shame my mistakes One day I will fall in love again But today my heart is walled up, can’t take any more pain By jessica semaan

You can still love her And it still won’t work out You can still desire him And it still isn’t right for you You can still miss her And it still isn’t a sign You can still dream about him And it still won’t come true You can still want to try again And it still doesn’t make her want to try You can still beg and plead And it still won’t get you near You can still long, want, need And it still will be the relationship That will make you feel hidden, alone and wrong By jessica semaan